Wanna Lose Weight?...

Wanna lose weight? Take on a task in a field in which you have no experience. And make sure it is a monstrous bitch of a task too. This Open House has me losing so much sleep, and working so hard, I have easily dropped five to eight pounds in the last month. I am freaking out every night before I go to sleep and every morning when I wake up that this whole thing will be a huge flop. No one will show up or those that do will be so disappointed in what they see, this program won’t get two inches off the ground – at least that’s the gremlin in my head driving me bonkers.

There is so much to do and I feel a tremendous amount of pressure as I try to tackle a list of a million little tasks. And each time a task is accomplished, a hundred more appear. It’s never ending and I am drowning in a quagmire of details. I would like to think that having a small army to help with this would be beneficial, but right now it’s pretty much me.

What is most frustrating is the constant message from my boss who is freaking out that people will not show up. “You need to (insert whatever directive here),” is her battle cry and it is making things decidedly unpleasant. I am trying to cover every base here which has included waking up for a 5:30 A.M. Mass on December 5^th for the feast of the Virgin of Guadalupe; a day the Mexican community holds very dear. I was handing out flyers to everyone telling them of this Open House in the hopes of drumming up participation. But apparently, it’s not enough.

Tomorrow is the big day. Do I have everything done? Hell no. Is it enough? We’ll soon find out.